L'apatia (dal greco "a-pathos", letteralmente "senza emozione") è una riduzione dei comportamenti finalizzati, dovuta a mancanza di motivazione. Si distingue dalla depressione in quanto il paziente apatico non prova disagio per la sua condizione, mentre la depressione correla con stati ansiosi e provoca un tono negativo dell'umore che può arrivare fino al desiderio di morire.
condition characterized by a decrease or absence of any emotional reaction to situations and events of everyday life.
is expressed in the form of indifference, inertia or lack of physical reaction to situations that would normally generate interest or excitement, a reduction of targeted behaviors, a lack of initiative, a submission in the choices daily. The subject
apathetic limits the production of thoughts related to objectives, even to the point of neglecting himself, as well as showing serious signs of detachment from the environment that surrounds it, and try indifference and reluctance against any new experiences. But not necessarily because it depends heavily on the characteristics of the subject character.
The inability to express emotions is reflected in the apathetic person, reduced expression in voice, facial expression and gesture as well as a deterioration of sexual activity and nutrition.
If the subject is developing a form apathetic depressive symptoms listed above plus a psychomotor retardation, a pessimism an inclusive global hopelessness and low self-esteem.
(Source: Wikipedia)
Slowly I felt worn out, I was slowly destroying ... I felt pain, atrocious.
Now I feel a 'cruel indifference, as if I had used to all this ... It is as if the pain I had made her, as if to dominate me in all my reaction to any event. Lately say that I am more solar hate me, because in reality they are surrounded by a dark veil of resignation and sadness.
do not understand why I pretend to feel good involuntarily when my body tells me that my mind is sick.
I can not delete so much disappointment and pain, I can not really.
I feel I have become unable to prove the 'impulsive emotions I felt before: I do not feel anything more vigorously and fully as before.
I can not believe that he becomes yet, not the 'I decided I, but for the' umpteenth time is a consequence: "I am the result of what was done to me. It is the fundamental principle of the universe: every action has an equal and opposite reaction . is exactly the case.
But how do I get back as before? Who can get me back as before?
Just when my heart seems to react seconded by me, on his own without ever beating louder for love but only to beat a little faster then the nervousness subsided false feelings of well being that I inadvertently create. But not consciously manage everything and this scares me. How do I get back as before? I want to cry, I feel the anger in my veins, I feel butterflies in the stomach when someone keeps me in his arms and makes me feel the 'smell of her skin. Why do not happen anymore, why? Because that's all died down and locked by a fake feel good, why? And 'maybe a mechanism to preserve my body in pain? but why? I do not want to, at least I'd still be the same as always .... are no longer the same as always.
I can not forgive so much pain, disappointment and hurt so much.
I forgive, but inadvertently fail to love something does not allow me to do so. I want to cry, but probably ... I have exhausted all the tears at my disposal.
- Kelly Hilton -
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